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They are juz bitches and maybe i am too....

well firstly i hate those girls who sit behind me they are damn bitches sia
who they thihk they are
they not the prettiest in class but the bitchest
they can win an award for it too hahaha
BITCHES 
i hate them alot sia
talk about ppl onli they think their life so good izit???
watever la i juz dont really care anymore 


also i hurt someone... a good friend of mine 
i dont even know i hurt her 
am i dumb or wat dont even know i hurt her 
yes i must admit i am 
I AM DUMB
i really hope everything can be ok soon 
cause i dont wanna to lose someone like her she is like a big sis to me 
i really hav to apologise to her but i dont even know how to talk to her
i may think too much but watever it is  i made a mistake tat i regret alot 

I AM REALLY SORI 
or maybe saying sori is juz too late for me....

HELP!!!!!! 
 

fail and i am proud of it hahaha

fail ma first btt test
well no big deal actually cause its ma first time
did study but fall asleep in e end
dont know la try again and again till i pass and till i get license  
hahaha
well best of luck to me

laughing and having fun always

well tats me having fun
last few entry was so emo well tats juz WORDS
oh well ma friends noe me well i not like tat
hahaha





i always laughing all e time one and ppl might think i am crazy
tats e normal me
live life to e fullest ppl no matter wat u wanna a friend always emo one or crazy
maybe u guys dont wanna both hahaha
i am like tat one like fun alot and dont care wat ppl is saying usually
especially wen some criticise me
but if critise someone who is close to me
well watch ur back lor seriously
like ma little brother got bully in school pity him sia
so wat tat boy is 12 years old huh
like to bully small kid onli
try bully me la
see wat will happen
wat i can say get ready ur grave ok
try to harm someone who is close to me
well...
i think i dont hav to continue i guess u guys noe wat will happen next....

times passes but love endures

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles
even when her heart is broken
and the one tat could always brighten up your day
even if she couldnt brighten her own

misery love company

wen u r sad or unhappy
of course u need someone to talk too
but if u alone and upset plz dont do anything stupid like kill urself
its juz so stupid of u to do tat sia
life is to short for misery and sadness
take a look at me happy as always no matter wat happen
of course i took somethings seriously
but try to put a smile in everything ok ppl
but laughing and smiling e whole day ppl might think u r crazy
hahaha
jk
oh well .....
in conclusion dont do anything stupid la in life which u will regret in e future

a song about ma past

e lyrics of tis song really remind me of ma past
its really bring back good and bad memory
missing tat someone and also how much i really loathe tat someone
but i put everything away for now
keep a smile on ma face always
tats syidah motto ALWAYS CRAZY AND LAUGHING.... 

How Do You Sleep
Jesse McCartney
Departure (2008)

Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh
Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

Tried my best at movin' on
Have yet to find a girl like you
See things now I didn't before
Now wishin' I had more time with you

How do you stay awake
Knowin' all I do is think of you
All the things we fought about
Then never will happen again
If I could just see you

If I had my way come and getcha girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember 'round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

Baby all that I hear from my friends
Again again and again compliments 'bout you
They say we saw your girl at the game
And damn we gotta say a big mistake by you

Not only did your body bang
But I miss the conversation too
Tell me that you're gettin' no sleep
Can't think can't eat till I come see you

If I had my way come and getcha girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember 'round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep

Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh
Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep
How do you sleep
Oh-uh oh-uh oh-uh oh

i am going to run far far away

ma life was juz behind this smile and laughter tat  i hav
i may look happy or maybe tis happy go lucky girl
but i juz all a cover up for all e sadness i hav 
ma past its coming back to me again
y tis things happen again and again
i try running from it but its juz come back
no matter wat i do its still come back
i do make mistake in e past but i am trying to put things away
i am try veri hard
nothing seem to work
wat i wanna does not happen and will never happen
but e things which i dont it to repeat juz came back to me again and again
sometime i do miss it but i hav enough of it
i wanna to life ma life on ma own ways
moving ahead
looking forward to things which going to happen
i wanna to me again
e fun loving bitch everyone hates(i was juz kidding)
i try looking for it sometime but it seem to be far from ma reach
i juz everything is juz far from ma reach
i think so negetively about ma life
but i was e one cheer ppl up
i dont wanna to let ppl see me cry
i try not to cry instead i endure i take everything and swallow it
i been 2 years i hav not shed a tears maybe its time for me to let everything out
but not crying maybe i think of something else like working out or working so tat i dont like too much of life
and wat life hav made me
although life made me more mature
i not tat mature yet to stand up for wat i wanna or need
maybe i need time
but how long more i hav to wait
i waited all ma lfe yet nothing hav happen
i dont need anyone pity but juz leave me for e time being i need to clear ma mind rite now
having too much stuff in ma head
ma head hav too little memory space
hope u all understand






















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OH WELL....

been long ma blog but so sad no time to share ma view
but i miss it alot
been places and been quite sick too
this few days

tired
losing weight to but i dont wanna to lost weight wanna to gain them instead
cause later i will be like under weight omg not tat
ehh...
so not me
ppl wanna to lose weight
but i wanna to gain weight
well jealous izit ppl
wat to do god make me tis way
hav to be happy for wat i get rite

wen to some good and bad movie

the bad one was COMING SOON
dont watch it ppl
not nice at all
wen for someone engagement todae
and it was so cool
she look so pretty

btw i hinting huh ma birthday coming
so i wanna present
kidding
i juz need a buffet
sit there for e whole day
and go fat good rite

den i will say no more to under weight
hahaha
exceptable rule man
hahaha

syidah gone crazy
again
maybe i should juz stop it

another day another heart is broken

well its true in the world there bound to be someone hu is heart broken rite now
usually the girls will be e one who suffer the most
guys only take for a moment or the most a few days to recover from their wounds
girls take longer time and they need their space if u noe wat  mean

but in tis situation hu do we blame the guys or girls
is e two parties usually at fault cause we juz cant blame the boys all e time
and also girls are e one hu fall in love first in e relationship den u guys
for most girls la
well some girls need time to reliease and know wats love about

guys to the hav to sort out their ego and stuff
girls hav ego too well u know tat time of the month especially
so guys dont disturb them wen it tat time of the month ok
hahaha

u may think its funny but its true
not alot of guys understand tis but try to at least ok
we dont usually think tat our other half if at fault but we are wrong sometime
think about it we hav problem wit ourselves too dont think tis whole world need to listen to u
 
sometime do listen to ur other half it might do u good someday or another

tats all folks.........
love u guys
muacks!!!muacks!!!


 


lets get WILD at wild wild wet

well i first time go there
no time to go such places mar
fun fun
ok la
a bit boring usually go out veri tired but todae too hype
dont know y
maybe i crazy asual
haha

maybe ma god 'sis' is rite
i need to reduce ma sugar level
nonsense haha

well tats was not the worst part
i got sun burn sia
i hate it alot cause it on ma face
it is so RED like a red chilli

hahaa

imagine ma face like a red chilli
well wat to do
it was super hot todae
well thank god never rain or we will waste money sia

ok tats all folks

love u guys

muacks muacks